Another Secret Santa Letter :) xxx

Dear Aussie,

We’re here with you, all the way to the moon and back.

You are strong. you are smart, you think of other people. That’s what we love about you.

You know this track, this trail, this road, this place like the back of your hand. Every curve, every roundabout way of breaking records, and making them. You’ve done it all your life. Let’s get this thing done together, kiddo.

If you’re burning up the track, our flaky pastry, then you’re doing what you’re supposed to do.

Remember this: England might be your mate, but we’re the ones who survived a country and lived to tell the tales.

You’re the winner here. We’re the winners here. Come on Aussie.

Love,

Aunty.

P.S. Sorry Chuck. Sometimes we gotta show a bit of National Pride, for all our kids overseas. The magic word is “Yet”, and “yet” is what we are going to do to win. ” Yet, I… can” “Yet, I will.” “Yet, I did”.

Secret Santa Letters

Dear You,

You’re mum is my dad and I don’t care.

Love you,

A Cardigan.

Letter Two.

Dear furry creature who lies at the bottom of my bed on weekdays and when it’s hungry it yells.

You are the best frog ever.

Love Mog

Letter Three

Dear Hairy MaClary’s writer author, and etc, and the illustrator, who’s fab,

We all loved your stories and you are wonderful people who have excited children all over the world for decades and decades combined.

With love from your millions of fans all over the world (and me)

Letter Four (and the second last one for today)

Dear Humperdinck,

You are the best vacuum cleaner, and I am pretty sure if your owners could love you more, they would sing as well as you do, when given the opportunity. That’s a EUFY, and I wasn’t paid to do that.

Love, the owner (or one of them).

Letter Five,

She’s still slimmer than ever, and one of the funniest people I have ever known. Have a Sherry on me and don’t forget the coffee mug.

Love Her dad (all parents understand this, and so do their kids when they were small until they grew up and forgot and turned into woebegone people from Mars and several other heavenly planets, and really? Yep yep, that’s two, so there we go).

DON’T BRING YOUR KIDS HERE

without an adult who can read and write English. This is not a free-for-all, it’s a personal blog. If you or your child is upset by swearing, this is not the place to be. If you or your child is upset by my personal experiences, this is not the place to be. If you have a husband or wife who you think represents a horse, check your eyesight, because horses are real, live animals. Have a nice day.

The Temper

I was going to show you something else this morning but I’m feeling a spot of rage coming on. It’s possibly why, with the original story/title of The Temper, it felt like like it didn’t quite hit the mark.

When I got to the fourth story of that book (you know, the one I wrote, not anyone else) I called it Out Of Time, because the name I’d been looking at for a long time to call the story was “Extempore”. It didn’t quite fit what I was looking at though. It didn’t sit right.

With a word like “Temper”, you get to see it in its entire meaning. The “pounding into shape” of a mood or mindset, the flash of rage those who don’t know me very well always seem to be surprised by, and the immediate control I will insert on myself when this happens. Not everyone can do this. It doesn’t make it an excuse, and sometimes it can be used to your advantage. Hence the alternative title of “The Tempest”, (which unfortunately had been used as a title many years ago for another book).

It (the word Temper) can never be used to your advantage, though, if you can’t control it. Imagine going into a boxing ring and flipping out at your opponent while he’s sizing you up for a nice meal. He’s going to win because he’s in control, and you’re not. Rage, and fury are two very different things.

So, when one is not in a boxing ring and one is capable of wounding with one’s voice instead of fists or whatever, one still needs to apply that very strict code of conduct to oneself to stop yourself from “beasting out”. It doesn’t always work, and sometimes it is almost impossible to control (I know this one for a fact when it comes to the written word), but the written word is possibly the ONLY place where one can go back and put things to right before they pass them on… Especially if the message conveyed is on someone else’s behalf because that other person was too much of a coward to say it themselves. It happens a lot, and sometimes it happens without their consent

If that is the case, as I have helped construct messages on other people’s behalf (my sons, husband, friends), then those people need to once again look at the title of this particular piece. Using my words without my consent to send a message will only get you deeper in the poop. Understanding whose temper is controlling who really depends on the time of day, so don’t get too carried away with yourself. Perhaps take a leaf out of your own “Book,” and learn how and why one needs to control one’s temper.

People also need to understand when a dream is a dream and not reality. Even if it’s a dream that smacks of deja vu, or a dream that appears to be a recurring one, it is still a dream, and not reality. If it hasn’t actually happened, it likely won’t happen at all. It’s like a little switch has popped on in your head to tell you beforehand that something might be difficult to control and it’s a pretty good indicator you’ll know exactly how to control it if you were ever in that situation. You’re welcome.

Dear East Perth Lockup,

I’m wondering whether you still have my fingerprints on file. They may have changed slightly over the years, and acquired a scar or two. Many of your present day members may not remember me, but I do know (and remember) an old Ivan who may remember that night well.

It was night, to be fair, and i don’t believe it was dreary. The small, sparkly, poo-brown sigma had been the vehicle I drove at that time. It had been perhaps, purchased from another former member of your mob, and I happened to be driving it at the time I was caught wandering along Hay Street East.

My passenger, and I did have one if I recall, was a little person, but not a child, who happened to be, you guessed it, sitting in the passenger seat. My clothing, if I recall, consisted of one dress, purchased previously on Barrack Street (but not on the same night), peach, one leather belt, oddly shaped and white (it may not have been, but I did wear it with that dress on more than one occasion) and a pair of white leather slingbacks.

Your constables managed to finally get me to pull over when I considered it safe, that being on the lower corner as one turns left at the bottom of Barrack Street, possibly near where the Army Surplus Store once stood. They then proceeded to take myself and my passenger to the above address.

It may have been quite a surprise to one of the members on staff when the sister-in-law of his former “teammate” walked through the door. He may have indeed said some very inappropriate words along the lines of “What are you doing here” with a question mark somewhere in that sentence. He may have even laughed a great deal at the conundrum his former teammate’s sister-in-law found herself in at that time.

Let it be said, I never said I wasn’t a terrible teenager or young adult, but I did always manage to get to work, and the courthouse on time, regardless of distraction.

Thank you for your time.

Kate Capewell (nee Tew).

P.S. Paddy, also a former teammate, may remember his larks around the Dongara township. I think that’s on file as well, nothing to do with me, and quite a few years later.

I wish them and their families love, luck and hugs. May your ships always enter a safe harbour. CSC.

Dear East Perth Lockup,

I’m wondering whether you still have my fingerprints on file. They may have changed slightly over the years, and acquired a scar or two. Many of your present day members may not remember me, but I do know (and remember) an old Ivan who may remember that night well.

It was night, to be fair, and i don’t believe it was dreary. The small, sparkly, poo-brown sigma had been the vehicle I drove at that time. It had been perhaps, purchased from another former member of your mob, and I happened to be driving it at the time I was caught wandering along Hay Street East.

My passenger, and I did have one if I recall, was a little person, but not a child, who happened to be, you guessed it, sitting in the passenger seat. My clothing, if I recall, consisted of one dress, purchased previously on Barrack Street (but not on the same night), peach, one leather belt, oddly shaped and white (it may not have been, but I did wear it with that dress on more than one occasion) and a pair of white leather slingbacks.

Your constables managed to finally get me to pull over when I considered it safe, that being on the lower corner as one turns left at the bottom of Barrack Street, possibly near where the Army Surplus Store once stood. They then proceeded to take myself and my passenger to the above address.

It may have been quite a surprise to one of the members on staff when the sister-in-law of his former “teammate” walked through the door. He may have indeed said some very inappropriate words along the lines of “What are you doing here” with a question mark somewhere in that sentence. He may have even laughed a great deal at the conundrum his former teammate’s sister-in-law found herself in at that time.

Let it be said, I never said I wasn’t a terrible teenager or young adult, but I did always manage to get to work, and the courthouse on time, regardless of distraction.

Thank you for your time.

Kate Capewell (nee Tew).

P.S. Paddy, also a former teammate, may remember his larks around the Dongara township. I think that’s on file as well, nothing to do with me, and quite a few years later.

I wish them and their families love, luck and hugs. May your ships always enter a safe harbour. CSC.

The “Explaining Myself” shirt.

If you were forced to wear one outfit over and over again, what would it be?

It’s funny, isn’t it. You tell people you don’t want to be stuck at home, you have no interest in psychobabble, and yet they keep throwing it at you like you need it, and make you put on the display shirt again.

The difference between psychobabble and someone listening, by the way, is the ones that listen actually understand every word you say or write.

So, why the harrassment from people with no life skills? Because it’s funny for them.  They haven’t got anything better to do. They enjoy it. The real people, with real issues, lives, and families — those people don’t come into it. They’re just there for entertainment and to be harassed.

What also pisses me off, as an Australian, is the people saying, ‘No one has emotional depth anymore, or any emotional feeling.’

It’s possibly because those people saying it are drugged up to the eyeballs, on anti-depressants, or completely off their tits on something else. It’s also possibly because they don’t understand when someone does something understated, doesn’t scream or laugh, or uses easy to read words.

Swearing as an adult is totally off the table if you’ve got sensitive ears or too much of a fluffy little heart. Why would someone put that in a story meant for adults? Goodness me!

(Don’t forget, these are also the people who like to read porn style romances, as long as there isn’t any swearing and it’s “inclusive”.)

Maybe it is simply because they don’t listen.

I’m gonna put it down to that.

They don’t listen, or if they’re reading, instead of listening, they don’t think it isn’t real.

When they find out later that some things are very real, they still don’t care because that is just the way some people think.

They can’t help it. They’re just not very bright.

I’m not apologising for them. They can do that themselves.

Just as an aside and to throw you all out of whack, my own father, who was in WWII, didn’t march in any ANZAC Day parades until the Vietnam Vets were recognised — which took quite some time.

Have a good day.

Storm

Bart woke up to the sound of his own snores, and the feeling someone had just spoken to him. What was it the man had said in his dreams?

Rain’s coming.

The sense of urgency he now felt was something he could not ignore. He lurched to his feet just as a stiff breeze came down the track. The sound of the creek had become louder and he could feel something grumbling under his feet. As the breeze hit, his floppy hat blew off his head and then there was the sound of a very large splash.

‘What the fuck?’

This time he could hear the voice quite clearly.

You should probably get moving, it said conversationally. She’s here.

The creek, which had been happily gurgling the last time he’d gone down there, now seemed to have a, although still happy, very loud humming sound. An extreeeeemely loud, giggling, humming sound. It was possibly the strangest, oddest, newest, oldest sound he had ever heard in his life. Above Bart’s head, the air had begun to shimmer slightly, and as he went to pick up the, once again, fallen over camp chair, it picked itself up, folded itself neatly, and deposited itself in the back of the four-wheel-drive.

I’m obviously still asleep.

No you’re not.

‘Huh?’

A very tall man stood beside him, deep brown eyes filled with mirth. He wore a very shiny blue suit with black lapels, his long thin legs seemed to reach into the sand of the track, and he didn’t appear to have feet.

You’re not dreaming, he said, although his mouth didn’t move. And, you’re not having a panic attack, just in case you were wondering. We should probably get all your gear into the, he drifted over to the Discovery. What do you call this thing?

Bart felt decidedly out-of-sorts. He seemed to have sat down, but he couldn’t remember doing it. He knew he had though, because there was a twig sticking into his arse.

‘A fourby? A four-wheel-drive? An offroad vehicle? Who the hell are you?’

Today, the man said as he picked up the kettle. I’m your best mate. How do we make your “fourby” move?

‘We can’t make it move,’ he said, and his voice sounded distant, and oddly calm. ‘It’s got a flat tyre.’

Never stopped me before. The man smiled, large white teeth stretching the skin of his face into a happy-go-lucky grin. Somehow, he’d seemed to pick information out of Bart’s head and applied it to himself. He rubbed his hands, then laced the long, knobbly fingers together as he stretched his arms over his head. You should probably get up now, he said, his deep voice making Bart’s mind quiver. I’m not doing this all by myself.

What the fuck is happening? Bart was on his feet again, and seemed to be helping the man shove the folding table into the back of the Landy.

How many names do you have for this thing/fourby/off-road vehicle?

‘Not that many,’ Bart replied, feeling strangely peaceful. ‘Enough to make it a little more interesting, and not so repetitive, I suppose.’

Interesting? Hmfph. Sounds confusing though, don’t you think?

‘Not really.’ This was the strangest conversation he’d ever had with an imaginary person in his life. He knew the man wasn’t actually real. Nobody wore a suit in the middle of the bush, and nobody talked with their mouths closed. He shut the rear of the four-wheel-drive and looked at his companion.

Fair enough. The man was moving his lips now, but it was definitely not in time to his words. I suppose there’s a lot of names for water too, if I think about it. Like, still water, waterhole, rain water, small river, big river and … Yeah. I don’t think she’ll wash you out. Not today. She seems to like you.

‘Who seems to like me?’ Bart glanced around. There wasn’t anyone else here.

The lizard. The man picked up Bart’s backpack. Okay, maybe not exactly a lizard. He flicked his wrist and one of the side doors opened. More of a snake. He paused and pursed his lips then grinned at Bart again.  Well, not exactly a snake. Sort of like a great big snake, but with little tiny legs that don’t move.

‘A legless lizard?’ He didn’t understand why this seemed to be interesting information, but apparently it was.

The man clapped his hands and laughed. Just like that. She’s kind of big though, for a legless lizard.

‘Big?’ Bart seemed to have relaxed into some sort of nightmare. He didn’t know why, but this bloke, whoever he was, seemed friendly, and very helpful. He certainly wasn’t teasing, not like Solway did, and he didn’t seem to be mean or nasty. He just … He just was.

Big, the man repeated. And small, sometimes I suppose. Kind of like a rainbow. She’s a legless lizard though, not a rainbow. She just looks like a rainbow.

‘I’m sorry?’

It’s the sun, you see. Reflects off her, or something. Well sometimes it does. Sometimes it doesn’t. Today, here, it doesn’t. He smiled and shrugged his broad shoulders. Possibly because you’re standing in it. Anyway, it doesn’t matter much. She’s here, and that’s all there is to it.

‘So, what do we do?’ Somehow, Bart found himself in the driver’s seat of the four-wheel-drive and the man was sitting beside him. He did not remember how they got there.

Well, just in case she changes her mind, which she does quite a lot, let me tell ya, we should probably go backwards. Forwards, the track you’re on stays reasonably  flat for a really long time. Backwards, it goes up that hill. Remember that hill? The man looked at him inquiringly.

‘Yes.’ Bart shuddered. Listening to this made him think about all the times Solway had narrowly avoided those eucalyptus trees the previous night. It really had been touch and go there for a while.

Ah. You remember how that feels. The man threw the gear stick in reverse, then slapped his bright blue knees, a happy grin on his face. He glanced at Bart expectantly. That’s good. This is going to be a lot worse.

As if of its own accord, the Landy started going backwards.

~~~~~~,~’~~~~~.~’~~80>

The cloud Solway had seen earlier had come in fairly quickly. It began to spit. The rain seemed light for now, but it  also seemed like it would get pretty heavy, pretty quickly.

The track was holding up. It had probably not rained here since the previous spring over six months ago, and there didn’t seem to be any clay in this soil. The ground had become slightly gravelly underfoot – the rocks under her feet were very small, almost pea-like. With the incline Solway was currently scaling, she felt more concerned about turning an ankle than slipping in clay. There wouldn’t be any reptiles out in the open now, not with the way the temp had dropped so rapidly. It would probably be better and slightly more relaxing to walk in the centre between the wheel ruts.

Still no T junction in sight. Surely it couldn’t be that far away. This track had really not seemed that long on the map – only a few k’s max. Why did it feel like she’d been walking for hours?

‘Because I have been walking for hours.’ She took off her cap, shook it,  put it back on again over her smoothed back hair and turned to look back. The slope she’d been walking up felt more obvious from here. Off in the distance she could see the bend she’d come around, and the slight wiggles in the track that had not been so obvious on the aerial map. 

‘What that means is this T junction I’ve been waiting for is coming up.’ She began ticking her fingers. ‘There’s only one track. That’s one thing. There’s a tributary to my left. That’s two.  Oh.’

She hadn’t exactly seen this tributary. Even with the rain, which had been getting distinctly heavier, she couldn’t hear it. That didn’t mean too much, not really. It just meant the water wasn’t moving. But, surely, she’d hear the rain on the water?

‘And what does that sound like,’ she admonished herself. ‘If the water isn’t moving, how am I going to hear it over all this rain, anyway? I’m not. If I really want to know if I’m going in the right direction, I should make sure the tributary is there, right? It’s either that, or keep walking. If I keep walking I’ll hit this T junction, and if I factor in this track is a bastard to walk on, that would have added extra time, so…’ She began stomping along the trail again. ‘I’ll get there soon enough, and I should stop being so impatient.’

Solway jerked her dripping cap back down over her forehead and tried to ignore her soaked long-sleeved shirt. If she stopped for too long, her body temp would drop very quickly and she’d begin to get cold. What she needed to remember was that she was on a rescue mission, and not the one in need of saving.

‘I’m going to have to put on extra clothing soon which means I’ll need to find some kind of shelter so nothing gets too wet.’ 

The bushes in the surrounding landscape were still knee height. She thought back to the map. On the other side of the T junction, it looked like there might be some kind of forest. Maybe when she got there, she’d cross over the road and take a break. The lightweight, silver emergency blanket in her backpack would warm her up, she could change socks, and possibly throw on a windcheater.

‘Not going to do that yet, though. It can wait until I get there.’

For the first time, Solway Endersans wondered if she had bitten off more than she could chew. It was not a comfortable feeling. 

She kept walking.

Bunyip of the Blackwood; Chocolate and Direction

After making absolutely positive Bart had the car keys, Solway left. There had been no particular ceremony in it, or passionate goodbyes – she’d just gone. It was a bit of a let down, in Bart’s opinion. He’d checked on her departing figure a couple of times as she’d walked off along the track, but somewhere between the rise and fall of hillocks he’d not even known were there, she disappeared.

‘Well, I can’t stand around here all day waiting for her to come back,’ he thought, although that’s exactly what he had in mind. ‘I’ll clean up, I suppose.’

He did the dishes, pulled everything out of the back of the Landy, repacked it again (and much better, he thought – he’d always been told his spatial awareness was off the charts), then unpacked it all again when he realised he couldn’t get to the things he wanted as easily as he thought he could. It seemed practicality was a part of packing for camping. Who knew?

Well, he did. Now.

Bart checked his watch. Great. Only an hour had passed. Pulling out the little winding mechanism on the side, he gave it several turns, and tapped the glass for good measure. How would Solway fare when her own digital watch ran out of battery?

Christ, he was being dramatic again.

‘Nobody cares, Bart,’ he said to the trees, then sat down heavily in his camp chair and stared at his boots. ‘Nobody cares.’

God he felt bored.

Maybe he should go back down to the creek again and have a real good squizzy at it? Maybe he could get some mood shots in black and white from his phone? Ooh! Maybe he could do micro shots or whatever it was they were called, and get real closeups of some of the different flora and fauna around the place. He looked around. Not that there was really much to take any good shots of, unless you really liked wattle leaves.Maybe there was something a little more interesting the way Solway had walked?

Bart stood up. He’d just got an idea. Maybe, like those old explorer types did, he could follow the creek a little way, see if it turned anything into like the landscape he’d seen where that (even now he didn’t want to say it was an eye, but it was, goddammit) eye was, and get some photos down there. Then, at least, when Solway came back, she could get some video, or make his photos into video, or something, and they could do stuff with it, and post it on his channel, and maybe, just maybe, someone might find it interesting enough to tell someone else, and maybe they might just get somewhere for a change.

First of all, though, he might just grab himself a cup of tea.

And, maybe, a little piece of chocky.

~~~~~~,~’~~~~~.~’~~80>

She’d finally reached the bend. How long had that taken? An hour and a half? It hadn’t looked that far on the map. Solway adjusted the straps on her backpack. Her legs were getting one hell of a workout in this soft sand. It would be nice to be able to walk on the hump between the ruts in the track, but there could be snakes, so it wasn’t a risk she was prepared to take.

Sunscreen had begun to get in her eyes. It stung. She pulled her cap down lower. One foot in front of the other. It’s the only way she’d be getting anywhere.

______________o_______________

He’d decided against the chocolate. He’d made himself a nice cup of tea and cupped the metal mug in his hands as he sat quietly in the shade, the brim of his floppy hat drawn low. On the other side of the track, past the harsh line of sunlight reflecting off the sand, colour flickered next to a sapling. It was a perfect shade of electric blue. The tiny bird bounced from one less-than-exciting leaf to another, little head cocked on one side. It seemed to be looking for something. A slow smile formed on Bart’s face as three more little birds popped out of the bushes. They were varying shades of brown and seemed to be quite friendly with the first one. Each of them darted off in slightly different directions, like a little gang of pickpockets. He grinned. 

‘Cheeky little bastards,’ he said softly.

The first bird, so tiny that if it were in Bart’s hand he’d be able to cup his fingers over it without even touching its feathers, looked over at him inquiringly. It didn’t seem in the least bit afraid. Bart supposed it was because the little man had three girlfriends. Tough little chicks, he thought, then smiled to himself. 

I could make this into a movie.

In the movie, the male bird, a fairy wren if he remembered correctly, would be riding an electric blue motorbike, and the three females would be strutting around threatening people with… Hmmm. Bart stroked his beard. They’d be threatening people with tiny caterpillars that squirted green gunk when you squeezed them.

I should write this down.

He frowned. I should be taking photos, that’s what I should be doing. Fuck.

He stood up, the camp chair collapsed and just like that, the four little birds disappeared.